A Glimpse Of heaven

Inspirational Kids

2009-05-06T04:17:00.009+08:00

Some child experts claim that children are born with a personality determined by genetics. Others feel that the child is environment determines it all. I believe children are a product of their genes and their environment. Of course there is evidence to support both arguments.

A spark just fell in my head that i have to blog about these kids. Gabriel, Edward, Stella, cayden, ashley & little declan.

Each individual one inspires me.

Babies often use gestures to communicate. A baby's muscles in their hands are developed long before they can speak. By the time they are one most children will wave bye-bye when someone says "Bye-bye." Little Declan blows kisses when her mom says, "Blow kisses." Baby sign language takes advantage of this developmental ability and helps babies give meaning to gestures. Many parents start the use to teach baby sign language with children as young as six months. As soon as an infant's fine motor skills are developed enough to make gestures they are old enough to start signing.

I've seen the benefits of sign language whenever declan moves.

This eliminates much crying and frustration. A 2000 study published by BabySigns.com showed that infants who learn baby sign language are often more advanced in their speech and language skills. Infants who use sign language learn to associate words with objects and needs at an earlier age. So once they are develop mentally able to say words they already have a large vocabulary established. Just like a child stops crawling after they can walk a child usually stop signing when they can talk, although occasionally they may use a sign along with speech.

That's DECLAN.

Back in 2009 May

2009-05-06T04:05:00.002+08:00

after MIA for so long on my blog, i've decided to start getting back on track of my blog. Its been almost a year since i blogged. webs are all over.

Thinking back how we first moved into our cosy home feels really sweet.blessings from friends has touched our heart. I just wanna say a big thank you to all of my lovely pals.
Thanks for remembering everything and my long outdated blog :)

i've decided to blogged about kids in my entry here. amazed right?:)

Straits times

2008-03-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

What a significant day of experience of photoshots with hubby.
had melody from straits time at our place today with huifen the photographer to take shoots of our place.
am just looking forward to this sunday's straits time. was told its gonna be colored page with our pics.hahha! i wonder what she will write abt us....hmmmmm

shall update with the article next week!
:)

My big day....

2008-01-07T16:52:00.000+08:00

It was the most brilliant day of my life.

John & Karen...The Eternal beginning of their lives together........

Cheers on with Toast on 26 Dec 2007, Raffles Town Club, Dunearn Ballroom 2 & 3

Indulging with blessings from 150 Guests for our Solemnization Ceremony.

Brimming with so much zeal, love and optimistic that i ran around giving everyone a big hug. Was adoring so much to squeeze all my guests out with love & thanks!

2:00PM:

A great afternoon spent with 'I DO! I DO! YES I DO!'

As John slips the ring onto my finger, i could feel the entire world around me soften into rose-petals hues and daffodil subtlety and it enshrounded us with a wisp of sanguine bliss.

Knowing that we have waited for many months, It gave a more powerful meaning of being 'TOGETHER."

It was a spirit confirmation from John.......' I could be anywhere else in the world, But I chose to be here with you."

That was all about in his speech of thanks following on our matrimony,

Whereas for me?

I’m so glad to be married to John; caring, talented, modest, charming – I can see why he picked me. Seriously, I don’t think there could ever be anyone in this world more perfect for me than John is and I appreciate my good fortune in marrying such a warm-hearted and loving man. When we first started going out together I was attracted by his ambition, drive and determination. After he proposed to me, I realized that without those qualities our marriage would still be as strong and I’d love him just as much. John brings out the good in me, he makes me laugh and he makes me enjoy each and every moment of life just by being a part of mine. They say that you don't marry someone you can live with – you marry the person who you cannot live without. This is certainly true. A wrapped up of thanks and love that we will grow old & grey together with trials & tribulations.

My certain Greatest Joy to see our meaningful ceremony works as it is.

The greatest love a man can give is the Love of within the heart.

With Special dedication of thanks to my beloved Brother Edwin, Aaron Tan, LinXin, Jessica Au, Tim & Adele, their beautiful kids Zoe & Titus!

With great appreciation, Thank you for making a day of heaven for us.

To all GUESTS, you created a great atmosphere!

Praise the Lord for everything!

Our special prayer will be with you.

Cheers to my Parents & John's Family!

With Love,

Mr & Mrs John Yong

P.s: I'll Put up more pics when its ready.

Meanwhile, Our lovenest is grooming in progress.......

Cheer on for a new year, a great start!

The Dying Trade

2007-11-30T16:54:00.000+08:00

life is so, so, so drab. It used to be something I looked forward to, something I was excited about- but now I'm am marking the start of my life really really soon. Everything else seems so trivial and tiring, and pointless, now.Over the past 11 months, I have lost all the energy, exuberance and spirit I used to have- and more. I have descended to being uncomfortable and awkwardly self-absorbed when I'm around others.I need to get back in touch with civilisation. . Friends. Lectures. Lecturers. People; Many people, rather than just any Single One.On to something new- what's been going on in my life? Well... does it seem like I have much to talk about.Am afraid not.

Sigh! Guess its all about trust and faith in this upcoming lesson to be.

So much of worries to think about........

As of my previous past entries, 3rd parties / flings are bound to die one fine day. grrr.......

Keeping myself really busy as i'm stuck in the moment and i cant help it all.

don't say that later will be better as i'm stuck in a moment and i cant help it all.

Let's all just face it, nobody gives as much heck about Blogs now as they used to.Nowadays, people would rather spend endless hours in front of dumb Facebooks, writing on each other's cyber-'walls' (I am suddenly reminded of Mending Wall) , pinching/poking/prodding one another. That comes across as, not that I mean to sound supercilious, exasperatingly banal.These 'channels of communication' are just crashing down on us in relentless waves: MSN, ICQ, IRC, Friendster, Facebook, WAYN... god knows how many other such things I have rejected, and how many more will join the surge in the future.Having to sign up for these things isn't just irritating to an imbecile proportion; we get so caught up with flaunting the number of friends we have (adding anyone who passes remotely for a semblance of an acquaintance) that we forget the more important process of keeping in touch with those people who DO matter.We let friendship just sort of... slip us by. Before we know it, the gal/guy we were so happily chatting away with a few years back now stands as just a vaguely familiar face which we struggle to put a name to..Trying very hard to be optimistic, Karen votes for the former reason. :)Blame myself, really. Getting all caught up with my personal life, conveniently ignoring that other human beings coexist with me, and taking for granted all that I've had in the past.Even my dearest ex-classmates of A01e...Count myself extremely lucky that I have Xin & Lyd around- they are probably one of the few greatest blessings I've had in my life.I have digressed rather unforgivably. I was meaning to comment on how I can now have a freer reign to speak my mind, given that people supposedly don't read others' blogs that much anymore. Supposedly lah, ya?Hey, that must have been my first Singlish in quite a while. It actually felt quite good saying it.:)

N95!!!!!

2007-11-10T14:24:00.001+08:00

I just got a new hp!

Hoorrraayyy?!!!

oh come on, i give it a boooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!thumbs down!

grrrrrrrrr!!

i'm getting annoyed with having to change 2 similar phone within 7days of my purchase!

same prob!

it just keeps shutting down for fiat!

man!

i may be contactless for this period and so dun blame me if i didnt contact u my friends.

its just faulty!

alrite bear with me!

10 golden years!

2007-10-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

The Halloween Look of the Year!

I had super duper great time at butter factory with my fav girls & guys.

Thanks Lyd(dear) , Xin ( Heart )= the 2 sisters dearest to my heart. ain't that unique? God Inspired!Maybe thats y they r my bestie for more than 10 years!

Marcus, Wilson, Yit hann & gabe= my fav guy friends. always the catalyst in my life.

A message to u guys:

Dear heartiest ppl of my life,

No matter how busy i am,

I thank god for our friendship!

Cherished deeply & though i may be busy,

PLEASE BEAR WITH ME!

its inevitable!

haha!

A TOAST TO OUR 10 GOLDEN YEARS OF BOND WITH LOVE!

CHEERS!!!!!!!

*CLAP CLAP*

Updates to my dear ones

2007-10-30T09:50:00.000+08:00

Diamonds are the hardest element but yet the loveliest on earth.

God ever created this hard element for the 'tough' men.

I have a theory (inspired probably by some superficial bimboteque book or article) regarding The Wedding Ring. Or The Proposal Ring that's much awaited in every girl's life. That it should be worth at least three months of the man's salary.
Don't you think so?
I can see all the women out there fervently nodding in agreement, but the agreement shouldn't be just with the material implication of this theory. At a deeper level, the wedding ring is a symbol of a perfect union; slipping the ring onto the finger is, in itself, a deliberately significant act, an extended metaphor of having the woman enter your life- she is cleansed by the sanctity of marriage, encircled with love, faith and hope. As you slip the ring onto her finger, you are expressing not just the mutitudinal amourous pangs which she stirs up in you. As you slip the ring onto her finger, a circle of pure, precious gem- purity, veracity, sincerity- you speak of Commitment.

As you slip the ring onto her finger, you would want the entire world around you to soften into rose-petal hues and daffodil subtlety, to enshroud you both with a wisp of sanguine bliss. What would you give for this to be a perfect moment?
Knowing that you have waited, set aside three months of your personal splurge and indulgence to finance this purchase: a purchase that doesn't take up just a bare fraction of what you earn, but a purchase that requires you to go beyond your comforts to obtain.
The Three-months'-salary rule also levels the playing ground for all, creating a relatively even benchmark for comparison (Ideally, comparisons shouldn't exist. Unforunately, they do in the real world). Suppose you receive a ring that's worth $15,000. Its sender is someone who earns a good $20,000 a month. Its a hefty gift all right, but if the sender earns just $5000 a month, it adds a whole new dimension to receiving the ring.

A more (forgive the plebian and rather un-literary use of this word) powerful meaning altogether.
You get the picture that I'm trying to paint here. To know if your man thinks you worthy of his comfortable reaches, a mere fragment of his life, or that you are the entire world to him, a world that he would give himself up, many times over, for.
The perfect man: "I could be anywhere else I want in the world, but I choose to be here with you."
That's the spirit!

These Months has been going so smoothly for me- no weird temper-flaring, no masochistic acts, not even much deviation from my moderately calm and logical disposition. I've been very thankful, and attributed my weird displays of melancholy, fury, hatred, and relentless self-mutilation (metaphorical) last year to the fact that1. This year, it sounds more convincing when Today, I am forced to consider the possibility that, just perhaps, there really is something innately wrong with me.
I've spent the whole month hunting with batches of dresses, venues & many many more small items for our ROM reception. unproductive, inconsequential, laughable trivialities? Why do I never plan properly; and when I plan, why is it that every, single, eFFing time, I fail to deliver?

I so bogged down nowadays by the domestic errands.

God I jus pray that the solemnisation will be a eternal beginning of John & myself.

Its a hefty one but always a worthy love.

huggs,John!

From Miss to Mrs

2007-10-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

Its 2am!!!!
though there are so much to do for this ROM, i guess i am really glad preparing for it knowing John is relatively busy. Praying I am able to fill up everything on my list asap!! PHEW!!!

Our Love Story: March 21st
ROM Date: 26 Dec' 07
ROM Venue :
Gown and Make Up : Dress Me Up

Shoes & Bouquet: Dress Me up
ROM Photographer : Tze Yong ( 1950 photography )
ROM Decor :
JP :
Wedding bands : Overseas
Ring Pillow:
Guestbook:
Corsages:
Bouquets:
Invitation Cards:

Wedding Pen:

Victoria secret Thongs-My HOT wish List

2007-10-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

Thongs are always prettier than bikini undies :)

Victoria's Secret-GOTTA HAVE RUSH!!!!!!!!

2007-10-06T00:31:00.001+08:00

I Love this pair of

Jessica Simpson's

strap heels.

My daily Heels

Hot fav baby doll sleepwear

Preeeeetttttyyy!

Just another Lunch

2007-10-05T13:37:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Lunch with a couple of my ancient friends.

The day passed by really quickly and recollection of the fleeting moments

seems pretty hard to get a grasp on. I just remember throughout our Lunch

Janelle & me were rattling on & on about university life and all.

Its great to know that most of them are gonna make it to UK.

'WHAT ON EARTH AM I DOING HERE FOR?!ARGH! I WANT TO GO TO UK TOO!'

grrrrrrr i could only give a pain shrugged.lol!

haha! somehow i think i would agree with their words that i would fear all the dark, beyond

diaphanous silver wisps that is gonna surround me. & further more, i would fear the lack of human interaction, the distance from civilisation.lol!

i would probably be struck with a cheesy, yet logical hypothesis that my baby doesn't exist next to me.

lol! haha! alrite, lameness!

Janelle & deborah couldn't stop sharing & chuckling on their partner.

tsk tsk! biatch session! oops!:)

Men are just sniffing away while that was happening. haha!

I guess both of them really got romantic partner but hey! mine isn't that bad too k!

He is just too way detail in his actions! haha! ( self defence )

i guess huggs are more expressive than words.

gers just melt when guys hug right?!

see thats what i mean!

All other attempts to mark it,show it and comprehend it are merely pathetic distortionary contrivances.

Oh no! 2pm! next upcoming home appt.

2007-09-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

They will tease u, play with you, care for you, die for you, want to hear from u every min, caress you, hug you & nv fail to coax you when u needed them so much!

But........

Where have all the honey bunnies plushy words gone to ?

where are all the sweet laughters & tears they promise to share with you?

GOD is right. "human fails"

No wonder he is the ALMIGHY one!

I just can't believe that when i look back in the past & see myself in my current situation,

i am giving a pain shrugged.

WHAT HAS HAPPENED?!

isn't a home suppose to be a comfortable & lovely place to be at
?

would you count yourself fortunate enough when you get the hot soup & fragrant rice on your

table set all for you?

knowing its specially prepared for you.

Will you tear?

or will you not give a damn?!

or will you take it as a daily must have routine & take the people ard you for granted?

sigh....LEsson gotta learn:

always spare a thought for the people ard u.have you appreciated ur loved ones today?

words!

2007-09-28T01:40:00.000+08:00

I cantbelieve i used to take refuge in spewing grandiloquence, to use it as a source of comfort.

Right now it seems like such an inane and pointless thing to do,

especially when faced with the task of having to string together

logic and reasoning, rather than

sesquipedalian manifests.

Note to self: Quit the Habit of reading pure fiction, it doesn't do productive

contribution to my intellectual stimulation.

tsk tsk tsk.

ALPHA ROMEO 147 SPORTS EDITION

2007-09-20T01:15:00.000+08:00

Was on the way home with baby from malaysia......He strucked me with ALPHA ROMEO 147. being in such a dilemma now on his struggable topic of getting rid his manual EP3, i am in total agreement of him getting a ROMEO for us.hahaha! despite i dislike the fact its MANUAL!!
argh!!!!!WOOO!but the lovely name of ALPHA MANUAL will definitely shunned my attention off from it.haha!

ALRITE BABY, here's a note to u....

SAY NO TO TYPE 'R' BUT YES TO TYPE 'A'

no more mitsubishi colt,Ford Focus and VW GOLF!

Alpha romeo will be our next baby.

then, that wouldn't be a downgrade for you!

hahahahahha!

ur lovely wife!

For that, u get a muacks!

A prayer unto the everlasting one

2007-09-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

nothing much around.

not juggling my mood well.

not in the right state of mind.

not presenting confidently.

losing great self esteem.

sigh.

did i do wrong?

did i make the wrong decisions?

am i being harsh?

am i too soft hearted?

am i just being too naive?

am i.........

sigh.

i just cant go on anymore.

i want to seek y0ur face.

be embrace in ur lovely arms

Lord, I just cry out to you.

I pray you hear my prayers.

walk with me.

touch me.

hug me close n tight.

only you understand my situation n hurts.

only you.

thank you for being the everlasting one.

thank you for being the lovely one.

if it wasn't u,

life will nv be the same anymore

i praise you lord.

amen.

RESUMED!

2007-09-06T00:45:00.000+08:00

Our first pic in the car When we first MET!

our latest pic in the car.period?!NOW!

preparing for Mr & Mrs Yong To be.....

John & myself have been meeting up quite a few interior designers for a couple of weekends already.

*phew*

i would say we are both quite remarkable.haha!

considering i got to brave the HOTTY SUN, the difficult hassle of waking up really early on weekends. The long long walks of shopping centres. The big eye hunt for CHEAP,SOLID,DESIGNER frnitures.

i never felt it was lethargic but a big big big extremely big blessing from god.

firstly, give thanks to my heavenly father!

The Weekends Passed by rather quickly. ( John has also blown off his wallet on expenditures, furnitures, appliances for the house )

I'm also feeling a slight tinge of panic as well as a trace of excitement regarding our new home & next phase of life together next year.

A couple of things we are setting in order before moving in next year.

Got to give thanks to the lord for all the financial blessings, keeping us strong and healthy, safe and sound.

praise the lord!

loads of good news around this 2 weeks from my girlfriends.

My deepest blessing to

Xiao fang, congratulations on your lovely wedding coming up!

a new life to come by with loads of commitments!

Lydia, Happiest 20th Birthday TO you!!!

Enjoy the celebration!

Vivian, arrival of 3rd child?

Congrats on the arrival of baby Jorayne. Nice lovely name! I love it!

I promise mine will be Xuan too! :)

girls of my life with occassions to celebrate!

My dearest Daddy & Bro's birthday is coming up too!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THEM!

DEAREST PPL OF MY LIFE!

Lastly, John baby, u r awesome! ur efforts are great!

ur everlasting sweetness!

love you loads!

Thanks!

dream home design in process.....

2007-08-23T16:19:00.000+08:00

A Dedication To My Dearest Baby, John :)

2007-08-23T00:49:00.000+08:00

The famous bible verse to engage all love in the world. Walking down the aisle for the greatest meaning of life:

Love is patient, love is kind.It does not envy, it does not boast,it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil,but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails.Bible~I Corinthians 13:4-8~

Dearest John,

Thank you for being there when I am in the grip of frustration, love can seem pretty much out of the question. Care is going to be a stretch. But appreciation is easy—even if it starts out kind of snide like, "I appreciate the fact I haven't fallen flat on my face ... yet." After a couple of stabs at it, you're going to stumble across one that sincerely touches you. Maybe it's just you, baby. One strong dose of appreciation can turn my perceptions around 180 degrees.

I have already heard the voice of our heart before, and am glad we followed it.

As we learn more about the heart and find that we can trust its contributions to our awareness, a new and more rewarding life experience will emerge for us baby. It's worth considering. After all, my life without your heart just isn't that much fun. THANK YOU for all your sweet love, care and concern. Your smiles are my greatest joy. You may be having a tough time at work but I will be with you for the rest of your life.

baby, you are my awesome baby.:)

My Deepest Prayers For Us:

God, if I can't have what I want, let me want what I have.

For Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.

With praises and joy, Thank you Lord for all the blessings.

Indeed, without your blessings, we will never be able to

smile with joys.

amen.

I kid you NOT!

2007-08-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

please applaud. coz its a fucking one man show.

i echoed john weakly.screw ur temper and my declarations to the world don't mean a pinch to me anymore!

and screw her and her flaccid resolve- i can easily just cast those inconsequential figures aside and bash my way through brutally. the rips and tears in my flash would mean nothing. really if thats wat it takes to get my golden trotters moving.

at this moment,my brain is shrinking.ok fine maybe it isn't but i feel like it is.

i pray to god dat i have the strength to move on n pull myself together; coz if it fails, i'm the only one that seems deserving of blames.for tainting all the nights with my feeble, disgraced shadows of attempt. for feeding everyone else around her a chance to snigger. 'i told u so' for fulfilling the prophecies of those wise sages out there who would with ponderous chin in a hand, announce regretfully- oh oh.......but succeed, it will not.'

so screw my temper and my patience!

Allow Faith To Be Your Cynosure To Walk By

2007-08-13T00:29:00.002+08:00

Whoa....i have never felt so privileged in my life before.It definitely does help brighten up your life when u look at how others have to settle with compared to u. This might be a little schadenfreuden, but the misery of others drawn appreciation from you- very effectively, too.

hmm to be 20 biogically and physically, but be able to assess that your maturity in life exceeds your years, it is only inevitable nothing short of abject contempt for those around you. The other 20-ers- biogically, physically, mentally. You can't help snoffing or sneering when u see girls your age whining about some inconsequential element in your life or another, when you see your friends and acquaintances fade in and out of relationships. ahhh! made the best and rightful decision of my life.

So much of contemplacy to do for me and John at this current period.

August 11th 2007,

our rightful prayer came from the lord and we received his shower of blessings for our new home. We are gonna have our new nest with a piece of heaven filled in our home.

Praise the Lord for it all!

Still praying that all decisions that are gonna be coming along the way, the Lord will guide us through with his light. Sounds like a fairy tale happening but its a dream coming true for us in 6 mths time :) YEAH! LET THE HEAVEN REJOICE!ANGELS SING!!!*wooooo......*

So much of us needing all the faith to build up our home together and lovingly embracing each other on all decisions and emotionally,mentally, physically and spiritually.

May God continue to provide all our needs from renovations to furnishing and even our legal administrative papers.

everything jus seems to be in his timing. So much of us cracking our brain on the right fruitful day of our engagement and wedding date. Thank you lord for blessing us with vouchers to help us save up a little:) heeeee! praise the lord again for blessing us financially!

Though the Singapore Flyer is gonna only officially start spinning its fairy wheels on 1st March 2008, we praise the lord that we may be 1 of the first couples to enjoy our solemnization on February 14 2008!

Mesmerizing in that thought now.....*haha!*

and how did we get that offer?! we got blessings from the LORD again! *heeeeee!*

Its gonna be a truly unique solemnization experience for John and myself, just imagine you are looking beyond the traditional venues and find excitement at the one and only venue in the sky to seal your lifelong love affair. Nothing can compare with the magical moments as we exchange our vows 165 metres atop the singapore skies, with glittering Marina Bay beneath our feet.

From the floral-decorated capsule to the chilled champagne upon boarding, it is destined to be the most memorable occasion of our life.

Such a perfect setting. wouldn't you agree?:) hee!

alrite, filling myself with much excitement and anxiety for the next phase of my life. however, not forgetting i will always update my blog to ppl whom i love.

Thank you God, all friends and family who are staying by our side helping us out with all your bits of suggestions and discounts and vouchers and roaming around with efforts for our new home and biggest day of our life to come.

*we pray that the Lord continue to bless us through and bless our dear ones through*

*MEN CAN FAIL YOU. BUT GOD NEVER FAILS*

2007-08-10T02:34:00.000+08:00

Have you ever woken up feeling like you have been clobbered around the head with a rotten fish throughout the night? your body feels like its worth the stink of a million miles the next day; your skin feels like its coated grime and goo procured overnight; your senses are mumbled with stench of a far, foul waves which the searing sunrays unleashes from within you; and your mind comes to a standstill when a loud thud hits alarms you. you hate the feeling!?Absolutely!

if you don't hate it, then i beg you to discover something intrinsically artificial within you; human beings are made to eat, sleep, eat and sleep more! Never can we survive without anyone of these, without any one of such frequencies, without any fervor in these pursuits. Alright, what am i trying to get at? *blink blink*

GRRRRRR!!!!national day eve.....a great night of jubilee with peeps and John....

*THAAAA!!!*3am, you suck bad time in doing such a ridiculed act!(come on!feel ur heart!)

*nah...don't get me all wrong. this has nth to do with ppl i love. :)

But i digress, and without having substantiated my argument, I shall just impose it; surely we must all hate the thuds and bangs for u have risen us from all troubles.May the lord just see us all through now.

*still praying for the miracles*

John and me had a great day of rest at home. Family bondings once again.A little more necessity is indulgent for us.hee!

*once again,Happy National to Us all!*

Back!

2007-08-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

After a few days going missing, i am finally back on web again.
Just in case you were wondering, i am still busy with lotsa things right now.
i still got lotsa administrative matters to attend to, reports, post mortems, future plans, meetings, appointments........
and i still succumb to domesticated indulgences such as cooking for John. ( yes! u r reading it rite! dun rub your eyes! )

seems like i have to busy myself with multiple commitments and obligations at any given moment to feel secure about my own capabilities. No kidding on that!

but all divided attention isn't going to do me good if i can't perfect them and can only deliver sub-par standards, eh? in John's words- 'Focus'

That being said, my external degree for International Relations and Politics is still under consideration......offered by LSE, and you can take your own sweet time to complete the degree.(as long as it seats within the range of 3-8years)Tempting, tempting!But John might be saying i probably won't have much of a life to since my work is demanding much of a discipline around. Hmmm......i fancy a little challenge....hee! so we'll see about that then.............:)

I am currently on a high now, drafting out possible future plans and meeting agendas.Settling baby and my refuge camp over our head (a flat! )dahhh!! blinking and pumping lotsa anxieties! Moreover, John's master cert has brood me over and over on my redundant cert.argh! i wish he is reading this so i can tell him to whip himself and sew his lips! HE IS BULLYING ME!!!!!!!!!RAHHHHHHHHH!! so much agony with john!haha! nahh!ITSSS LorrrVVVeeee!!

don't let the flame die down no matter how baddy you think you have screwed it up!

Janelle's words during our tea sessions and performance segments, will stand by me for the rest of my life. "The show must Go ON!"

Til the next time, i find time to provide my dear friends (such as mayee and venus who complains that lunch appointments comes once every two blue blue moons) with updates on my life, is shall attmept to first beat some organisations ( or semblance of it ) into my daily schedule.

So Madly Ecstatic!

2007-08-02T23:41:00.001+08:00

Wanna Know Something?! Most brilliant day of my life this week! It so totally is!

I'm brimming so much with love, zeal and optimistic that i feel like running around giving everybody around a gigantic bear hug! :)

oh how i would adore to have you squeezed! :)

til your eyeball pop out of the socket and your guts spilled out through your mouth. sweet! :)

hee!How deadly in love with John i truly am!most certainly! :)

*smiles everywhere*

-breathes deeply-Air now smells fresh of c

harred hopes-lithe bodies ravaged, sodomised, carefully mutilated and seasoned prodigally with the wretched (through deserved) fruits of SLOTH!No wonder there is a strong scent of pungent disappointment looming, which upon inhalation, defies your conventional bloodflow and decidedly pierces right through your heart instead.

AHHHHHH! lovely air we are exposed to,wouldn't you agree?

if you are ecstatic and you know it, clap your hands!

-applause-

*can't be a day containing more trust and love than this*

Gloomy!

2007-08-02T00:38:00.003+08:00

After several hours of delibration i decided to accord more net time to chronicling of lydia's words.But i haven got much time to prodigalize.so, let me just sheer off the wolly bits of feelings here.

Nowadays i'm getting so gloomy and pissing myself off.now that's a feat. Why does my life have to sucks so bad?!Why do u have to come and screw up my life like that?!DO you noe i feel the pain too? do u noe i bleed too? sometimes i try and try to numb myself from all the hurts-but it just doesn't work. I spent the whole morning craving out weird flower patterns on my hand,they are just victory branding though.

'you' have never made a comment insensitive before and got me bloody pissed off with your actions.NEVER!

which is of a nicer blue?the sky or the sea?(who cares abt the ans though,you certainly don't.) As far as they are concern,they probably wouldn't consider themselves to be tinted any shades of blue. How can they possibly see?! Only humans would ask stupid questions like 'which is nicer of a blue?-the sky or the sea?! (without recognising that neither of the 2 r blue!)

Its just that i am starting to get tired of everything. tired of my whole sucky sucky life..............................tired of.................

having to type like a truly brainless teenager angst kid.oh goodness sake! anyone who's considering ranting on like that should do a search teenage angst passe. but who should we blame for teenage angst? ALL OF YOU READING THIS ENTRY STILL AT THIS POINT.

tsk tsk tsk.

you deserve alot decent whipping at your butt.

i'm feeling absolutely schizophrenic- i mean look at all those entries!that bitter,resentful, psuedo-angst tone! how more pathetic can that get!ok then again, everything said on hindside is erm, different in that i'm no longer in the realm of words and results of your actions.

*Look to heaven*

*stoned*

Thanks to your blog and HP msgs!

2007-08-01T15:25:00.000+08:00

Alright i guess i jus need to sulk here and be a little sourpuss before i could get over all these.
It took two simultaneous msn conversations, a FEW BLOGS CHANCE UPON, and a phone conversation- before i was fuelled into discarding the minced portions of my frost.

what frost?

The entire blog really convinced me that john means alot to her ( i really dun want to mention your freakish name.) but as the current situation has clearly shown, i'd say that you are kicking my sorry asses!a little tilt in the hierachy,anyone?

mind you, that would be complacency barking up our tree, finding itself overwhelmed by the hospitality of the ever-vivacious you!while complacency is argurably one aspect, please do not accord any paramount significance to a fact as painful as our lavishingly love between john n me.

so,whoever said that you are free to cast aspersions on our love?!

sigh....ALRITE!! i'm jus being a little priss here who can't accept graciously the fact that you are still in love with john and that he still matters to you despite you are getting married.

if you are just attracting attention, to bolster your insecurity, to be (quoting country wife) 'vain rogues' who are contented only to be the though abler men than they are, then noe that there is no need to go about peppering every single inch of our discourse with magniloquence and grasp nimble enough to weave a flawless analogy. on a seperate note, you have rant on and on our relationship yet ending it up conterminous. you ought to be shot!

*pause*

this really shouldn't be where i'm looking to for consolation and reasurrance.
the thought of you trying to destroy has already pondered me on killing it all.
whatever it is, whatever it might be, I sure as hell has been exposed to it recently, and lots too. I mean- look!! i'm thinking thoughts but it didn't help at all to see them helterskelter off the moment i just try to deathgrip you and pen you down!

i really hate this feeling! i really hate you! given all that, i can forsee the next entry to be a really angry one whining abt the hopeless shame you've got.

*boos!*

here's your loveliest written entry on John. Guess you can enjoy reading YOUR own entry now!

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Today, one of my old friends said something really really sweet to me.It wasn't exactly that the sentence was sweet or the atmosphere or whatever.. It's just that it sounded like somwthing that you would never in your life imagine to hear (or in my case, see) ensuing from him...John has always been a very tight-lipped, calm and composed person. If he were your boyfriend, you would never hear him say stuff like "I Love You" or that "You mean the world to me.." etc etc

(i guess you aren't much of a privileged!)

because that is just like so not him...So as a friend.. it is even more unlikely to hear him say anything even remotely close to something like, "You will always be important to me in a special way.." But that was precisely what he said..You know some people? They are just so tight lipped that once they actually say something from the bottom of their hearts you feel so overwhelmed and touched that you might jsut cry? Yea, well, the scenerio was something like that.Back when I was in Scots, I came across his friendster that contained his "pseudo wedding pictures." While I admit that I felt really left out of his life, I could hardly blame him, considering that I was miles and miles away..But today, John told me that even if he got married (which ultimately he hasn't as of now,) I would still be important to him as a friend..Admittedly, considering that John and I go like way way way back as friends, some things you might feel just don't need to be articulated.. but somehow I think it feels really good to have him say it out loud...I am really rather pleased that I still have friends scattered around, as bo chup as I am.. so I hereby would like to extend a huge thank you to friends around me...Thanks for being around!

Not too sunny a reflection

2007-08-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

Never ever in my life have i ever heard a rendition of Que Sera Sera that comes any close to this in being nightmarishly ethereal. Definitely not the best song to wake up to, but it sounds eerie enough to keep you from falling asleep at night.

what with my freakish blog picture accompanying it- i'm spooked by the dooppelganger.

it will be interesting to note the time of this entry 1:05am!!!

Yes!i'm engaging in mundane pleasures at such an ungodly hour-when it would be justified if i'd even any intention to passed off as having stayed up to mug. I hate the way things are turning out now.

perhaps its just that little thoughts of 'losing' that strucks me at this freakish hour.

after hearing the events of unsightly people n msgs to my dearest, i can only give a reluctant smile and a pained shrug.

The kid in me is veering towards self-mutilation 'why do 3rd party exist?!'

it was laughter and joy towards the hearing on the bumpy roads but the pain in the heart held me breathless for seconds.

oh my!i guess i shouldn't be much of a panicker but calm n cool about everything. but truly, deep down in me, sourish yet sore. if ever u have the best remedy to kill it all?! GOD!!!

Lessons to learn: faith and hope is wasted beyond oneself. i altered the version of que sera sera.

oh, my little karen,

whatever we make, will be

the future is ours to see,

what we make, will be...

what we make, will be.....

are we really gonna stick it out til the end or jus another episode seeing you having to leave again?!

it'll be worth it for the experience; i've been whirled through; unholy amalgation of love, strength,passion,obdurancy,contrived,sanguineness,and hope. Adequately benevolent, they have allowed me occassionally indulgence of bliss; but whatever the saccharine can ultimately never mask the undercurrent to self-crafted solitude that i will always have to battle.

sigh!

Favourite Friends Of My Life!

2007-07-31T15:56:00.000+08:00

My Primary School Peeps...... toasting 13 years of long running friendship! :)

Tribute to Kok Kuan

2007-07-31T14:15:00.000+08:00

after reviewing my events for the past 2 months i guess my tributes needs to be pay out to the most 'efforting' person who has impacted me.

i would probably be struck by a cheesy,yet logical hypothesis, that darkness does not exist but merely a representation of the lack of light.

but hey!! this lack of light grows to be comforting; in fact the lightlessness of this whole realm lulls me into a cyclical states of slumber displaced consciousness, til finally, you got the greatest effort in enabling me to see the light of my lumps and pumps of fats on my body.

i call this ' miracle pill' ( out for sexiness n bits of glamors now )
continuing my effort for a better cause n not a ah lian cause. lol!
alrite since i feel you are all of a little worth, i shall grant u ur wish as well.

i dun have to elaborate too much on what my friend,KK, wants for 'enabling the light switch' in me. jus wide open your eyes to deem fit his wish my friends :)

heeeeeeeeee!!! (ooh! gender seeking: Female! ) lol!

kk says:
can u please put inur blog that i very handsome and looking for mei mei
kk says:
say i look like jay chow
~karen~ says:
ok
kk says:

above messages are conveyed by kok kuan. haha!

A male hunk looking for cute you! ( you qualify if you haf tonnes of fats at the front and rear of your body!)

he wants to go to double O but seeking government approval despite being a 'bachelor'

if you deem fit the above selection process, kindly tag this blog.

in courtesy of KK :)

SINGAPORE Romeo?! HAHA!

2007-07-31T12:24:00.000+08:00

speaking of sensibility?

hmmm i'm a little less fatalistic, a little more optimistic and a little more inclined to saccharine-infused wafts of daydream nowadays. but thats all for the moment before the sore topic on john completing his masters programme and lethargic of the waiting for his classified job. just keep moving on baby! the lord will see us through! blessings will come pouring into our lives. :)
seeing him return from Qatar has enlightenend me with his prestigious 'purple heart'

how amazing changi airbase is actually!ahhhhh! ;p

while being enshrouded in the rosy puffs of fantastic clouds right now, i'm still struggling to fend off my bonds. argh! the keen hopes of family wishes n prayers that i may be able to pull through these years of bonds.

hmm came across my dearest surrounding girlfriends' topic while sipping coffee with them.

it has gotten to a point where all of them has continually stresses the point on how singaporeans guys are not worth the consideration and not too great a catch ( forgetting in the process that my dearest john is of a husband to be is a singaporean. )hahaha!

as much as it delights me to have babies with blue eyes ( they are the most adorable thing on earth, closely follwed by indian girls with long eyelashes)
I WOULD LIKE TO BE PATRIOTIC IN THE CHOICE OF MY PARTNER! :)

i can hardly understand the girls' craze about getting a caucasian boyfriend, and how they claim that these western creatures are so much loving than the singapore boys.
it is perhaps true that cuturally, the westerners have a far more superior stand in playing Romeo than singaporeans; but how much of a charm stems from the desire for the end of (merely) prowess at charm, rather to the means of convincing affection?
they might play the gallent well, and know which heartstrings of yours to tag at, but why should their polished eloquence and romantic finesses to undermine our boys' worth?!

ahem ahem!!!!.....boys of singapore feeling so lifted up with girls of 21st century still praising and delighting their worth while spirit :)

*claps claps claps* :)
my baby just proven my theory of singapore Romeo! That's the best stand for him.

i know i know! my baby is always calm n cool to express his means of 'love' ( my agony went further than complains ) for his unromantic moves.tsk tsk tsk!

in any case, you don't see guys in singapore flocking to ANGMOR gers jus cause they have shapelier mounds of fats in front and at the rear.

sometimes, the silliest little actions can turn out to be the sweetest-simply for its innocent, genuine nature.

at least the empress dowager is still hoping for john to be the son-in-law.
haha!

John baby and Lyd never fails to fathom me! :)

2007-07-31T12:08:00.000+08:00

Weeks without you. things just felt darn weird.

couple of things that i'm missing right now in life?

no longer will i need to chocolates to ward off the irritabilty and depression. i've found something better. :)

currently my friends,karen, is under a heap of incomplete work which would, given the usual conditions, would have sparked her off into a self-lashing and self-bashing mode.

perhaps that talk with lyd really woke me up from my dramatic predicitons. without the love intimacy from john for 7 weeks, you've always been there to be a great support and adore me with big hugs and love! hee! ( so lesbian!) oops! though kim wah has worn off his faithful character causing immediate disturbs, we will still stick to the end with our sisterly power! :) toast for our friendship! boos to the jerky days! lol! :)

7 weeks without my dearest john i've learnt to settle for the sensible way of resolving my problems. or maybe the critic in me has been mellowed by my new found chocolate-substitute.

in fact the crude reality of my obesity bothers me less now that bliss ( and consequent ignorant) reigns!:) hee!

GOT LOVELY GIFTS FROM BABY ON HIS RETURN!:)

tonnes of pretty perfumes in crystal bottles and true 'branded' smell from qatar.haha!
gladly, no tudungs (malay scarf) hee!

thanks for lavishing your love like the fragrance of the perfumes baby. you are so lovely! :)
though i wish for a camel considering for jus the sheer intimidation factor! hee!